Motherhood one month in.

Thankful to have Ariy in our life
This has been quite the month.  I started writing a long blog to document the entire birth extravaganza but I think Rick did a better job documenting it in our very first family documentary (I am sure we will have more to come).  To see the baby documentary head over to rickloveschristine(+1). It was a long a rather stressful few weeks at the end of my pregnancy.  I think we are all happy and fairly relieved that phase is done and that we finally get to hang out and get to know Ariy.

Mother's Day
I am very grateful to have been able to celebrate Mother's day so soon after becoming one.  I was invited to sit on a panel at church in which I was playing the role as "newest mom."  I have to say I was a bit overwhelmed.  Although I was happy to celebrate and try and communicate that I have enjoyed this transition, I also feel as though I am very much in the transition phase.  I think I have much to learn and much more I will grow to love but the past few weeks have brought on all kinds of emotions.  The pendulum has definitely swung the other way in terms of emotions.  It was kind of a joke that when I was pregnant, I lost all sensitivity - very different from the usual me.  Well since baby has come out, I have gained it all back and some.  I cried or weeped most days the first couple weeks after he was born.  There has been various reasons for this.  I have cried because I look at Ariy and can't believe he's mine and how much I love him.  I have cried because I have looked at him and have felt so helpless - so baffled at how unequipped I feel.  I absolutely love being a mom and I am so thankful to celebrate this new adventure.  I think what has come unexpectedly is that fact that not everything falls into place immediately including your emotions.  In one short month I have already felt feelings of fear and confidence, of insecurity and joy, of guilt and excitement, of anger and thankfulness.

Daddys are the best
In this emotion filled month, I have thought a lot about my own Mom.  Thinking about her role as a single parent...I just can't imagine.  Although Rick and I are unsure of what our future will hold, I am so thankful for this unique time that we both get to be home.  We have enjoyed the time together as we have been transitioning to a family of 3.  I love the way we work together and the patience he has with me when I am tired and feeling insecure.  I can't imagine being alone in this situation...I am pretty blessed with an amazing husband who loves me and our little boy so much.

Happy 1 Month Ariy!  
Ariy has been with us for 1 whole month!  I can't believe it.  He has grown a lot already.  We took a really nice long walk around Newberg today.  He is continue to grow more alert every day.  We have had some issues with reflux but we are working it out.  He is a happier more content baby every day.  He also finished out the month by rolling over twice.  I think the only reason was because he tenses so much when he is on his belly.  He also is extremely close to smiling (Rick already thinks he smiles at him).

Happy 1 month!

We love our Ariy!